>disconnecting – Loss and fear of it


>Death … such an ominous word. most are scared of it, it is unknown, full of fantasy and visions. so much has been written, talked about, discoursed with …. i have been with this word for a while. ever since my divorce proceedings started actually. Divorce, as per dictionary meaning is -to separate; cut off -a judicial declaration dissolving a marriage in whole or in part -total separation; disunion -to break the marriage contract between oneself and (one’s spouse) synonyms are dissociate, divide, disconnect, split, disjoin …. i experienced “real” death for the first time in my divorce proceedings. I have experienced many many physical death before but the experience of what death actually feels like was like a bullet that gets lodged. It was not simply dissolving the marriage between two people. I was initiating the processing of discontinuing the history of 30 years between two people that was held in a certain way. the disjointing of relationships tween

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>went to my dentist today. he was in a chatty mood. he chatted about his holiday, how being with his happy family gave him a unprecedented sense of contentment that he never experienced before. how he believes today that God may have given him more that he thinks he deserves! while i was listening to him, a portion of Mahabharata came to mind. there was this question-answer session that happened between Dharamraja and Yudhishthira. one of the questions was “what is the strangest thing in the world’? and Yudhishthira’s answer was “every day crores of beings are dying in this world, but the rest of the world continues to behave as though they are going to live for ever”. There is such a truth in this line. I read it many times before, but this time it struck me quite forcefully. Death! a word that i have been with for a while ……bell rings … guests have arrived. will have

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