>well, i am not going to write about them, for i don’t know much. i have been intrigued by my dreams of the last one week. most of them are angst ridden, full of rage, angry dreams about people and houses. either i am not getting full control of my own house, or i am being disapproved by some other or both. this led me to look at the main characters of my dreams. in most cases, there is this middle to oldish man, who seems to be mocking at me and suggesting all kinds of insinuations. there is this youngish woman who seems to be a party to this man, more silent but cunning and manipulative, and one or two hangers on, who are not saying anything but not supporting me either. i am filled with rage in my dreams and feeling quite helpless that there is not anyone who will help. this brought me to the anima and
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>disconnecting – Loss and fear of it
>Death … such an ominous word. most are scared of it, it is unknown, full of fantasy and visions. so much has been written, talked about, discoursed with …. i have been with this word for a while. ever since my divorce proceedings started actually. Divorce, as per dictionary meaning is -to separate; cut off -a judicial declaration dissolving a marriage in whole or in part -total separation; disunion -to break the marriage contract between oneself and (one’s spouse) synonyms are dissociate, divide, disconnect, split, disjoin …. i experienced “real” death for the first time in my divorce proceedings. I have experienced many many physical death before but the experience of what death actually feels like was like a bullet that gets lodged. It was not simply dissolving the marriage between two people. I was initiating the processing of discontinuing the history of 30 years between two people that was held in a certain way. the disjointing of relationships tween
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