>the bipolarity of static masculine and dynamic feminine


Reposting ing something from 2009.


Hmmm … all the good things that i experienced over the last two weeks went out of the window in the last four days. i was on an emotional roller coaster, hardly having any control over my rawness, ended up having meaningless fights and arguments and loathed myself the most. there were some moments when i just wanted to die … notwithstanding my need to dramatise my life.

but some insights and resolutions …

first the insights:

I have been reading this book “Masculine and Feminine” and it talks about the two types of masculinity and femininity and the interplay between static and dynamic. one such bipolarity is between static masculine and dynamic feminine. in simple terms, people who are more towards this pole negatively, are torn between being rigid, opinionated, vocal, intrusive, dictatorial, idealistic, etc, etc on one hand, and between being reckless, impulsive, histrionic, rebellious, self loathing, drowning on self pity, lacking self control, etc, etc.

there is of course the positive polarities of this dynamics and there is the other set between Static Feminine and Dynamic Masculine; and that too has its positive and negative bi-polarity.

most people are torn between the polarities and most people end up splitting one or the other from their psyche. For example, if i take my example, i am caught in the bi-polarity of Static Masculine and Dynamic Feminine and often in its negative connotations. More over, in my case, i have split the Static Masculine from my psyche and projected it onto other people, i.e. both the positives and negatives of the pole are projected onto other people. For example, i would admire other people who can bind themselves and others, who has a sense of proportion, balance, can gently but firmly stand by his or her own principles, has a strong sense of self or self worth, can bring in a sense of order in a chaotic situation, can look at the whole picture without being overwhelmed most of the time, etc, etc; on the other hand i stay away or dislike either the same people or some others who are (in my perception) unnecessarily rigid, righteous, views the world from his/her high horses, unfair, autocratic, moralistic, judgemental, opinionated, silent critic, etc, etc.

As for the Dynamic feminine, the positives are: creativity, taking the uncertainty of life in its stride, being able to live with the tension of continuous change, spontaneous, vivacious, energetic, having a zest for life, able to bring out the positive from every negatives, etc, etc. the negatives are histrionic, overcome with emotional turbulence hence can be hysterical, prone to excesses of addiction, mood swings, self loathing, despair, suicidal tendencies, etc, etc.

now where am I in all the above? i do see myself caught in the negative bi-polarity of the Static Masculine (SM) and Dynamic Feminine (DM). while i don’t see to garner enough self control when i am feeling angst ridden, i also invite aggression and criticism of the SM from others.

In one particular event, i was caught in this loop with another person who is also (in my perception) caught in the same negative bi-polarity of SM and DM and in my encounter with her, we ended up hurting each other from our denied and hence most strongly held negative static masculine. we were critical, bitter, reactive and vengeful to each other and just could not see where the other was coming from. There was one more character in this context, on whom i have projected both the positives and negatives of the static masculine and this person too in my experience was drowning me with silent criticism, often in collusion with the other person. I experienced myself being an untouchable and it was so vivid that i could not just be there physically.

physically i felt suffocated, abandoned, ostracised and being made into an untouchable both by me and by them. These feelings were so strong that i had to physically look for a person to who i could just cry and feel being accepted in my most raw and “ugly” state of being. however, there were none. but this incident opened my eyes to many aspects of me and of this phenomena.

it took me almost the whole night to steady myself and have some sense of self control over the inner turmoil i was facing.

some other insights are:

i would often face this with people whose primary experience of mother is one of “insanity”, i.e. if i take my daughter, she has experienced me (despite who i may have been) as erratic, judgemental, contradictory, irrational, sometimes insensitive and sometimes out of control. Here the frame of “insantity” is distorted and consequently the frame of “sanity” that is built therefore is also distorted. in my perception, the frame of this “sanity” is to be appropriate, sensitive, controlled, bound, balanced and accepting, in other words some of the positive aspect of the static masculine. now, there is nothing wrong with this frame except one thing, all negatives of both static masculine and dynamic feminine are rejected in this frame.

therefore, with this set of people, presumably whose primary experience with female authority figures have been negative, i would draw projection rightly or wrongly of being “insane” and the person would then operate from a righteous location of the static masculine who needs to bring this irrationality into order by criticising, by being directive, by being reactive, i.e. by control and not by acceptance of the folly. and often the concerns of these people would be the concerns for the under dogs, or concern for the appropriateness of the situation. therefore, the moment a cycle of “inappropriate” behaviour starts, will start the cycle of stopping it, binding it and negating it from these set of people. I often experience this from my daughter who some times experiences me as volatile, irresponsible, insensitive and somewhat “out of control”. and then the fight that we have between us is precisely “who has the last word about the situation; the “sane” one or the “insane” one”? No one wins and both parties get hurt tremendously and i often end up loathing myself to bits and this, predictably, reinforces her belief in my “insanity”.

The third set of insight that i have is that there have been some gentically endowed characteristics that i have developed. These are more in the frame of the dynamic feminine but my childhood experience of female relatives around me have instilled the negatives of the DM much more than the positive ones. Not having had a positive father figure influence, or rather, having had a negative father figure influence has pushed it further to the realms of fragmenting the positives of the SM from the psyche and identifying with the negatives of the dynamic feminine. One of the ways of getting out of this loop of bipolarity is to go through the fire, i.e. dealing with the rage, raw emotions internally and not letting it come out to the world. it is very tough, as of now i have not found a suitable way of dealing with it but i hope to.

The fourth set of insight and some resolutions:

Often while i am in the grip of this, i would take the criticisms as they come, tell myself that i deserved it and others are right. This also is a distortion as it makes everyone else into perfect human beings except self.

I am going to work on the positives of both these polarity and work towards bringing in more balance rather than projecting it outside. it is going to cause some disturbances around as people who criticise me also like to experience my wild side, my energetic side, my unconventional side but they are unwilling to experience the negatives of this side. Rather than saying “this is all my fault”, i am putting a boundary around myself now and i am making a decision of minimising my interface with such people who in my perception are caught in this loop with me. I do not want to be with people who make me feel “not OK” being who i am, while at the same time being aware of what i am bringing into the situation, i.e. operating from my positive static masculine and positive static feminine.

what i experienced during this experience is abject orphan hood i.e. lacking both a positive affirming father and a loving, nurturing mother internally. when i frantically searched for such people in my life, only two names came to me, both of who are female friends. What i receive from these two people are a lot of acceptance of me, the good, the bad and the ugly. I am not sure i return the favour to them in same measure, but i know that the do.

i am still feeling raw from the experience but as the positives of the dynamic feminine would point out, there is always a silver line around the dark cloud.


I live in Bangalore, India, and by profession, I am CEO of a consulting organization, an Organization Consultant and an Executive Coach. I write because I like writing my thoughts and reflections for me to review my life and the life as I see around myself. However, sometimes it makes sense to convey my thoughts to others and connect with others. Maybe it strikes a chord; may be it does not. My life has been my most outstanding teacher, which is why I like sharing my experiences, memories, encounters and other narratives that I build as I go along. I am interested in people, society, culture, ways of life, individual and collective narratives/stories as they lead us to discover each other as nothing else does. I also write about coaching, people's lives, culture, stories, mothering my daughter, believing in a feminine way of life, and most of all, believe that all politics starts from the self and personal convictions

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